It's a sad evening when you're watching your phone, hoping for a message from a man, and receiving an email from the previous one that brings you to tears.
For some mysterious reason, this new one hasn't hugged me yet, and the last one has written to comment how great I am at hugs. I almost feel like, if I do get a hug from the new one, I'll be sniffing around for table scraps of love. I want to give him a final chance, but I don't really know what to make of the situation.
As for the last guy, I don't want to be with him, but I guess it still hurts more than I wanted to admit. He was gentle, kind, and a great hugger. He was also flaky and frustrating.
Why is this all so fucking hard for me?